Been dealing with the Negative Self-Talk Committee for the past couple weeks. At times, it’s gotten the best of me.
I suppose it’s rather normal to hit a wall at about the one month point in recovery from knee replacement. The steps forward are smaller. Every morning I wake up, I don’t start from where I left off yesterday, but a few degrees behind that, a bit stiffer than when I went to bed. The recovery is tedious at this point. Fighting against the normal reaction of my body, building scar tissue. If you don’t push past the pain, you will end up with a disappointing outcome. I didn’t do this to be disappointed.
Yes, it starts to mess with your mind. There is no other time in my life where I have sat in a chair this much, for this long. It has become a mind-game. As I do my exercises and feel the pain, I start to think I haven’t done enough! I haven’t taken it seriously. I did something wrong. And, of course, none is true.
Oh, my dear hubby, John, has dealt with my tears and fears patiently!
Controlling the negative thinking, the destructive self-talk that we can all engage in at any moment in our lives is paramount to our success. Where does it lead us if we don’t? Down the slippery slope of victim thinking for one.
When we go there, we can get discouraged, depressed, feel hopeless, out of control—you name it! Are we moving forward at that point? Moving towards success? No! We are getting mired down in negativity and often we get stuck.
I had my one-month appointment today with the surgeon. He asked me to straighten my leg and then asked me to bend it. Guess what he said?!
“Great! You are doing well!”
“But, doc, what about the stiffness and pain that continues?”
“Work through it! Keep pushing past it” he said.
It was good for me to hear it’s normal. Helpful to hear that I hadn’t done something wrong. Now, it’s up to me to continue to do the work. To do that and be successful, I MUST control my thinking, digging deep into my gut and push through the pain.
Once again I am reminded that God led me to the right word to focus on for the year:
I appreciate what my daughter gave me for Mother’s Day to help me remember this—a beautiful necklace with the word front and center.
In order to persevere, I must keep that mind-controlling Negative Committee under control. I have to speak positively to myself. Build myself up. Draw on the strength God has given me to push past the pain to get to where I want to go. And that is not stuck in the mud of negativity.
Do you struggle with negative self-talk? Where in your life right now are YOU your own worse enemy?